Thursday, September 22, 2005

excuse me please!

Here is a conversation between me & myself at a lazy night after a busy day:
"Oh please… I m very tired this time & really not able to do anything. My leg is paining badly, also I have a splitting headache. I need to get a sleep…
-But I've a lot of tasks to do, What about those?
No. I’ll do it tomorrow… This time not at all……"

And I went to bed & embraced the most comfortable sleep……
As I closed my eyes, all the perplexing thoughts came to my way. Some were with me, some were against…
“I haven’t done this & that, tomorrow I’ll have to work twice hard. Should I get up & finish my work just now…?”
But another phase of my mind was saying…
“No, I’m not physically well, I also have some mental stress…(& many other excuses like this) better I do it tomorrow… just sleep soon, so that I’d wake up early in the morning.
I’ve set up the alarm… I’ll definitely wake up…”

Ok… then I decided to have a comfy sleep that night. But suddenly something, which I wasn’t expecting, aroused in my mind…
A scene of IIM, and after that that dream city where I want to live, that building near the sky where I envisage my home, that workplace & those people with whom I want to work, and all those things with which I fancy my future just flashed in my mind… And then… my heart was pumping out my chest, my head was full of vim & vigor, my body was just like flying in the sky and I was at the verge of opening my eyes & just standing out of bed. The headache, leg pain and that laziness, were all went away without saying me bye…
And then I woke up & finished my procrastinated works. After that I slept like a log, with a self-assurance that next day will be free from any dilly-dally.

Why that thought of my future flashed upon my eyes? Perhaps, sometimes when I was deciding what I want to achieve in my future, I was talking with my God, & praying that ‘O God whenever I deviate from my path, please show me the right direction.’
Now I believe that with all His blessings God listens to me, even at the moment when I don’t talk to him, He listens to my true desires, & that’s why he pushed that thought to wake me up.
Most of us might have faced situations like this very often. Though we know the result of every such action we take, we do the things against our will & make a lot of excuses to ourself. We procrastinate deliberately. But He gives a jerk to remind us our true self… just faith is required…
After that incident I realized that the thing which push us towards getting our dreams come true is our frequent re-assurance to ourselves that we are in this world to achieve the best, make ourselves to deserve for the best, & live life at full of its extent, not for baffling & bewildering in the temporary aberration of life.
And yes, the moment when I was procrastinating was the moment when I forgot to fill my mind, heart & soul with the rejoice of my future, the only thing which makes me keep on stepping towards success.
So don’t you think it’s time to keep aside all the excuses & live the life we’ve imagined?